By Sue Hulley (that's me).
Please don't steal my work, just send me an email
and ask my permission first to use these writings and be blessed.

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I am no longer a member of Be Motivated Today. I decided to rather put my energies into building up people spiritually as I have found that, while money is useful and somewhat necessary to survive, it is NOT the be all and end all of this very short life we are given.

My focus is on the inner peace, the happiness that gets rid of the true loneliness that people feel. The feeling that one is so totally alone with nothing or nobody to motivate them to get up in the mornings with a smile on their faces and say - "YES, bring on the new day!"

This is the happiness I personally have achieved despite the fact that I am divorced with two children and a bankful of debt.

I tried MLMing, the business owning, the selling crafts from home, the networking
and they all failed me.

Why?

Because they were not the thing I was seeking.

I was seeking peace in my heart, forgiveness for my failings and genuine friends who did not just use me for what I had, whether it be what I could do, buy or fix for them, but to be able to enjoy each others company.

I personally found this in my relationship with the Lord and His family. To know that He is with me where ever I go and that He has a plan of great joy for me even after death of this fleshly body of mine.

To know that He knows me personally, knows every nasty thing I have said and done and yet He still loves me with a love very few men can understand.

To feel His peace settle deep within my bones and know I don't have to worry about things as He has promised He will provide for my every need.

Yes, I still fail at being the perfect human, but His forgiveness ensures me a fresh start, a clean slate if I just ask with a genuine heart. If I seek His council first, I know that He will lead me over that swamp on firm ground.

When I fall into depression I know His arms are around me and His Holy Spirit is soothing me from within and He lifts me up into songs of praise and worship that clears the darkness away.

I have lost count of how many times the Holy Spirit has told me to slow down while driving in my car, only to have something or someone dart in front of the vehicle, or to take a different route to work only to find that there was a huge accident that happened at the time I would have driven past, and if I had failed to listen I would have been seriously hurt or even killed.

I do not need alcohol or smokes to keep me happy. I do not even need a husband or boyfriend to enjoy this life we live. I am complete without things of the world because I accepted Jesus as my saviour.

Don't get me wrong, life as a christian is not always easy and comfortable. I battle with things of the world just as others do, I get tempted to break my committments even more so because when you start a genuine relationship with the Lord Jesus, the devil starts targeting you to try and destroy that love and committment.

The devil places things in your path guaranteed to make you hesitate, but as you grow strong in the Lord's will by reading His Word and developing a deeper relationship with our Creator, you learn how to overcome those temptations and obstacles.

Know with all your heart that the Lord Jesus Christ loves you, yes YOU, personally. He cares for each one of us. He didn't create us just to send us to hell, but to be able to celebrate life with Him.

Don't turn your back on the Lord
because if you do you turn your back on peace, love and happiness.
You turn your back on being complete with Him.

A poem by Sue Hulley (that's me). Please don't steal my work, just send me an email and ask my permission first to use these writings and be blessed.

Depression,
dragging me down
into the dark depths of dread.
An effort
to smile
to breathe
to live
is almost beyond me
I know with my head that the light is there
I have felt with my heart that love is around
But how to wade through the negative?
How to lift your heavy feet to walk forward,
is what I want to know.
My face feels puffy,
Tears of release not even an option
My body is weak, tired.
How can I carry on?

Some may say, turn to the light
or
Step by step,
day by day.
But how?
How do you live in this hole?
How do you climb out of the deep well
When your fingers are crushed?
When the sheer walls have no footholds?
Yes, I see the light, so far above me.
Shining down like a warm beacon of life
But it does not reach this far.

I curl up on cold stone floor
Shivering
weak
ready
to
go.

A glimmer catches my eye.
The light so far above
Moves
The haze around it fades.
I see a candle
A tiny speck of warmth
against a vast sea of cold.
It flickers wildly
buffeted by winds of torment.
I peer to see who carries this light
but it is still to dim,
To overwhelmed
By the thick oppressive darkness.
My muscles scream in agony as I lift myself.
No energy
Little want.
I flop back down to the hard stone
and wait
Wait for destiny to decend
Wait for death to creep closer
I close my eyes against the light.
Emptiness fills my soul
Fills my emotions.
I sigh, ready to stop fighting.

A tug on my shoulder
Makes me jerk
Eyes tear open
search
But there is just black.
A warm touch
Fingers gripping my arm
firmly yet encouraging
Shadows still surround.
I grab the hand.
A lump in my throat
Threatens to choke.
Strong arms lift me
Support me.
My hands are guided forward.
A rough thick rope bumps my skin
But I cannot hold on.

I look upward and see
the light far above.
The candle is gone
no longer shines nearby
But it's duty had been done.
I feel arms enclose me
Warm, loving, helpful.
Fingers fasten straps around me
Tight, strong, secure.
A tug on the rope begins the journey
Upward.
Slow
Steady


Arms still hold me firmly
The light grows stronger.
The walls cling to me,
trying to hold me back
Hold me down
But the rope pulls
up
up
up.

I close my eyes
Trusting
Relaxing
Hope starts to creep in
Along with it, peace.
up
up
up

The light shines though my lids
I open them
squinting against the glare
Of daylight
Of warm sun pulsing against my skin
I see
my best friend smiling at me.
Arm still
wrapped around my waist
Holding onto the rope.

Thank you, my Lord.